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Gay means homosexual. If you are attracted to a person of the same gender as yours, you’re gay. How do we categorize gay? In America, there are gay men and gay women. For gay women, you can specifically say that they are “lesbian“. We can define lesbian into 3 types: Butch is the one who dresses like a man (dominant), Femme is feminine (submissive) and Androgynous is in between Butch and Femme. Nevertheless, the categories of lesbian in Thailand is different from America. Thai’s categorize lesbian by actions and outside appearance. If you’re tomboyish, they say you’re ‘tom‘ but if you’re femme, they say you’re ‘dy‘ (shorten from lady). And if you are femme and you love femme, they say you’re lesbian. Isn’t it weird? Coz you’re lesbian anyway if you are a woman and you love another woman. Usually if you say the word “gay”, Thai’s will take it to mean gay men.

Therefore if you are not gay, bisexual nor transgender then you are straight (which means heterosexual).

I’m gay. I’m androgynous. I’m really attracted to women. I was born this way. I did not copy it from movies or a tv series. I’m gay not because it is becoming a trend. I don’t hate my father (I love him very much). I don’t hate men (I have male friends). No man never broke my heart (I’m gay not because I once had strong disappointment from loving men).

How “out” am I? I don’t go around telling people ‘Hey I’m gay!’ but if you are curious and dare to ask about my personal life style or my sexual identity, I dare to answer you that ‘Yes, I’m gay’. I do not advertise it and I do not hide it.

What is exactly wrong with being gay? I don’t know. I know many Christians take being gay is a sin. I have found many of my “Christian” friends have a great hatred for gay people. They talk about them as though they are the “condemned to hell people”, as if they are not worth saving. What is right or wrong? There actually is a right and wrong. I believe “whatever is right for you must be right. If you are happy it must be right”. If I felt it’s right, it’s right. If you’re straight, you say “No! It’s wrong!”. And I would say “Wrong according to who?”.

What is my love (Gay love)?
I categorize love into different kinds: parental, brotherly, friendly, romantic, spiritual, etc. I feel it is okay to express my love. I don’t think anyone should be judged because of who they love or who they are with. Everyone finds a love, and who ever it be man or women you should never have to be or feel ashamed of it. It is who you care about the most in your life.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. it is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Don’t hate gays because they choose to live this type of lifestyle. Look at gay people like any other human being. Respect them if they’re noble. Praise them if their work is fine.

I can say being gay is tough in a straight world. It’s not fun. People look down on me. People make jokes about me. People gossip behind my back. I don’t hate them. I hope one day they will understand and not be so narrow-minded.

I see heterosexuals pissed off at homosexuals for no reason. I really would love to learn why it is that for some reason, straight people get to control the lives of gay people. I mean, how often in their daily lives must they encounter gays who are unmarried. I really don’t see how they feel they have the right to sit back and decide how they think a society of millions should be able to live. In fact, heterosexuals should stop trying to force gays to be straight.

Now, isn`t this totally unfair? Then again, people seem to believe life is often unfair anyway. I am just like anyone trying to find a place in this world but forced to live my “so-called life” like this, with the fear of rejection. One day I hope there’s more acceptance for gays…